Ignorance is bliss or the truth will set your free?

So I've managed to never own a scale until this Christmas. I've had fun weighing myself before and after I go to the bathroom, before and after I shower, naked and clothed. I thought the truth of what it told me would set me free. Granted I do think about it a bit more but that chocolate still screams "Mary!". Yes I am weak.

Now I've been pretty happy without a scale for my 34 years. Well I guess that's not true because my parents owned one when I lived there but since I've been 18 I've managed to be scale free. It is nice to be ignorant in a way.

I've also been full length mirror free since we've lived in AK. Just because I never bought one. Sometimes I try to stand on my toilet and turn my tri fold medicine cabinet mirrors to see if I can get an idea of what I look like but it doesn't really work. I usually go blissfully about my days ignorant to how I really look.

I recently got myself ready to pick up my hubby who was gone for about 3 months. I thought I was looking pretty good. I had to run to the store quickly to pick something up. I pushed the cart around with Sam attached to the outside holding on. I was quickly going through and passed a full length mirror. Low and behold to my horror, I knew what I looked like and well let's just say it wasn't what I THOUGHT I looked like. I was kinda embarrassed that I'd go out in public looking like that. So I went home and changed. Hopefully the next outfit wasn't too bad but if it was no one was staring.

So my question to you is which is it, Ignorance is Bliss or Will the truth set you free? I would like to say that the truth has set me free and I am able to tackle those problem areas of my physical appearance but I'm a weak,undisciplined person. I will most likely buy a full length mirror though. I love to read all my nutrition stuff but man is my sugar addiction strong. Reading and doing are two totally different things.

Better days

So I was a little grumpy my last post. Sorry. :)

I have good things to say today. I only had to find one substitute for Primary and my husband was conveniently available. He did an amazing job. Though primary was still a bit rowdy it was nothing like last week. Sighs of relief. :)

I kinda like having this early church even if it means I have to get up at 5:30am to get to my meetings before. I actually got to attend those meetings without worrying about the kids. Granted Mike's clock was off by two hours and he almost didn't make it in time for Sacrament. He did make it and the kids were dressed eating granola bars.

Now I'm getting ready to head out to our Potluck for separated families. I made a big batch of red beans and rice with some ham and reindeer sausage. Hopefully it's good but if not so what, I can everyone elses food right. Oh you may be thinking why is she going to this potluck when her husband is now home. Easy answer. While Mike was gone I made myself make something to take for the designated potluck day and after wrestling kids for hours I was looking forward to some other adult to talk to. By the time I got to the kitchen it had been determined there was no potluck. I for some reason needed to bust into tears over this but excused myself to the restroom. My dear friends husband noticed my distress and they invited us over for dinner that day. It ended up being lovely but since I felt so deflated when I realized no one would be there I told myself I would try to go just to socialize with those who may also need an adult to talk to. :)

I also had a great weekend with Mike. We ran away to a bed and breakfast. We went out to a nice restaurant too and did a little shopping. I got a new pair of boots. I'll have to post the picture of my old UGGS. I've had them for about 15 years and they are very sad these days but now I have a new pair of boots. I hope I like them just as well though they are not UGGS.

Well my time is running out and my beans need a stir. I hope you all have a happy day today too. There's so much time when church is in the morning. :)